The Weeping Rose

I Remember that Scene

When the silence is too hard to break,
I don't know how to escape,
I submit my breath to time and pray,
Holding out for my love's air someday,

Though the date is near and soon,
I feel it not enough for me or you,
Though for those days we may not cry,
I fear to death to again say goodbye.

Autumn is the same sad song,
Winter and Spring are just as long,
There are a thousand reasons to cry,
But, please, not a single one to die.

Do not fear as I do,
I want to be your pride and courage -
Through and through,
And though the future seems far away,
And my heart beats heavy through the pain,
And though it seems no one may see or care,
I promise to love you everywhere.

I'm not perfect, but I am for you,
I'm not whole, but I am with you,
I'm not alone because of you,
I'm not sorry because of you,
You are my reason,
My hopes and my dreams,
I only love,
I promise that my love will forever be,

I'll tell you in Spanish because you love it too,
I would do anything you asked me to,
**"Te busco en la sombra de la noche,
Entrando de repente a la oscuridad de mi coche,
Para tratar de escapar de este lugar,
Para que algún día desde cerca, te podría amar,
No temo el amor, ni desde cerca ni de lejos,
A veces imagino tu imagen en mi espejo,
Te sostengo en mi corazón,
Estoy a tu lado mi amor,
Y cuando dudas todo en tu vida,
Cuando piensas que no puedas,
Cuando la vida te falta,
Recuerde el chico que de cerca te ama
Recuerde la fuerza que envío de California"

I'd tell it to you any which way,
In movie tickets, in pictures, and in the songs I sing,
I won't lie, I loved you yesterday,
When you were crying my soul took to the streets,
It left my body and rushed to the scene,
It carried out the strecher and called 911,
My soul went to touch you and give you a hug,
It loved you then as it does now,
Swiftly and smoothly and how,
My soul raced to calm you to bed,
It cried and it loved nonetheless,
It held you as your cries chilled the night,
It took away the monsters and left on the light,
It sang to you between the sobs,
It gave you the right dosage of love,
It gave all it had,
I remember that scene, it still makes me sad.

Maybe this isn't enough,
But I plead that this, Maddy, is love,
Don't worry that I said I loved you yesterday,
I hope it didn't worry you, my words slip as they may,
You should always know I love you,
Today, tomorrow, and in a year too,
I love you forever and I'll hold to that,
If you want more, I'll try to as much as I can,
k2hola:
Maddy I love you, you're perfect for me,
I have no complaints as you can see,
You're pretty, you're beautiful, you're also smart,
You're compassionate, passionate, and carry a big heart,
You're all that I need, You're all that I want,
You're love's incarnation, You're all I got,

Pass this around to your trusted friends,
All this long poem from beginning to end,
Please, I ask, share this one,
I want them to realize what it is to love,
I want to share this with the entire world,
But our love is ours, I know, my perfect girl.

** i look for you in the shadow of night
entering my car randomly to the darkness of my car
to try to escape from this place
so that someday i can love you from up-close
I'm not scared of love, neither from up close nor faraway
Sometimes i imagine your image in my mirror
I hold you in my heart
I'm at your side my love
And when you doubt everything in your life,
When you think you can't
When life falters (or fails),
Remember the boy that from up close loves you
Remember the force (force or strength) that I mail (or send) to you from California

written by Kevin Verbael for Maddy

k2hola: my phone died today and she was crying
lucky3girl3: why?
k2hola: that we werent together
lucky3girl3: just poured out like she couldnt take it anymore?
k2hola: yes for about 20 minutes, not hopelessly crying like i sometimes do but just pouring nonetheless
k2hola: she didnt lose hope
lucky3girl3: i didnt say that
lucky3girl3: just sometimes it hurts more than at other times
lucky3girl3: sometimes u can take it, sometimes its a little harder to bear
k2hola: we all understand on this one i think
lucky3girl3: yeah
k2hola: it hurts
k2hola: and sometimes it rains and sometimes it pours
lucky3girl3: exactly
lucky3girl3: it always hurts, but sometimes its almost ignorable, but others...
lucky3girl3: well
lucky3girl3: its like the poem

posted by The Shadowpax @ 9:18 PM 1 comments

part of one of my essays

"[society] has made happiness much more complicated than it needs to be. Happiness can be found anywhere in everything. It is a search throughout our entire lives, all we need to do to find it and live a life of happiness. Be a person who laughs at the small things in life, someone who can smile because it is a sunny day, who can enjoy the silence of a walk in a park and the quieting of one's own soul. Happiness can be as simple as a rose or as complicated as love. Happiness does not have to be sitting at the top of the social pyramid; it can be as simplistic as looking at the sapphire sky."

posted by The Shadowpax @ 9:14 PM 5 comments

"Autumn Spring"

Something about someone so small
playing the heart and soul of "Autumn Spring".
Hands barely strong enough (large enough)
to play the keys.
Innocense at its finest
glory at its finest.


Leaves slowly float...
float, float...
down to the forrest floor,
Spring's flowers die under Autumn's breath

Leaves slowly float...
float, float...
down to the forrest floor,
to lie among the silence of life quieting

Leaves slowly float...
float, float...
down to the forrest floor,
the perfect closing to a solomn ending


All sharp notes
only the black keys play
something about someone so small
playing the heart and soul of "Autumn Spring".

Inspiration from Danica's piano song "Autumn Spring"

posted by The Shadowpax @ 11:37 PM 1 comments

Puppet of the world

The prison of strings
Held her captive
Like a little doll.
She walked along
The barren land
Trying not to fall.
She climbed and climbed
The rocky dune,
The wasteland she despised.
She hated thinking
She was controlled
By some little ties.
They laughed
And tugged at her,
Pulling at her limbs.
They made her cry
She stumbles,
The light around her dims.
She allowed
The devious strings
To pull her to the ground.
As she lies there
In the gravel,
She starts to look around.
She doesn’t need
These dogmatic strings
To help survive
Her barren world.
Then she found
The twisted plot
Began to come uncurled.
Her rages,
Her bondage,
The always too tight ties,
They didn’t help her live her life,
All they told
Were lies.
She watched and helped
The world around
Begin to grow in life.
She began to
Cut her cursed strings
With a jagged knife.
The once beaten girl
Danced in delight.
She no longer
Had to worry about,
Some foolish string’s cruel bite.

posted by The Shadowpax @ 5:39 PM 1 comments

for the logical, keep this in mind:

trust [in the sense of faith] is belief without reason, knowledge is belief with reason, with love you have both—for the heart has reasons that reason does not know.
-K. Verbael

posted by The Shadowpax @ 5:33 PM 0 comments

--Hardships--

Have you ever felt as if you’re just looking around yourself, seeing what is offered: seeing the emotions, the thoughts, the hardships, the determination required, and the lack of understanding? Wondering what choices to make because you don’t really know what will cause what, or what will hurt who, or if u will regret such a decision or action. How can we choose blindly? For sometimes it does indeed seem like blindly we choose, when its not blindness, its uncertainty, it’s like when Indiana took that step off the cliff in order to reach the Holy Grail, we don’t know what’ll really happen. We expect to fall, but we won’t know until we take that step.

posted by The Shadowpax @ 1:23 PM 0 comments

untitled love

love's a funny thing... you put yourself on the line, taking a risk at falling in love, when you're really more likely to sink than swim...right now i'm swimming better than ever before. and besides, what would love be with out the risk of drowning?

posted by The Shadowpax @ 1:21 PM 1 comments